Tuesday, February 22, 2011

听见?听见。




钢琴师的手指,落下了。

厅内一片黑暗,仅余一束光线投射在钢琴师和她的搭档上,听众们不管听不听得懂,都很配合地肃穆起来。他坐在台下,望着台上的她那含蓄柔雅的倩影正在慢慢地解 放着心中澎湃激情的灵魂。当琴音柔缓抒情时,他在揣想,她是在咏怀,还是在滴泪?当手指在琴键上奔跑时,她是在追逐,还是在逃亡?他好奇,径自思忖。

演奏者在所演奏的曲目所注入的灵魂是否与作曲者在作曲时所注入的灵魂相互重叠?

如果演奏者以不同于作曲者的触角来感受音乐,演奏音乐,那这首曲子是否就不再赏心悦耳,而演奏者也就将被冠以不忠原曲的罪名了呢?他想,音乐的世界应该没有 那么单纯的黑白对错吧。圣洁的音乐世界肯定不愿流俗人世,犯贱地设下大小框框来禁锢自己。在这飘渺无形的国度中,人人皆能在天空折射彩虹,让大地遍地青 绿,为海洋注入氧气。只要灵魂忠于这片乐土,就算寂寞、郁闷、感伤、愤怒,电闪雷鸣狂风暴雨肆虐一番了以后,这里还是会以阳光的温暖拥抱那失意的灵魂的。
 



小提琴手左手持琴,右手握弓,琴弦的鸣动破碎了黑暗的寂静,穿入了他的心。他感觉到小提琴手……不,应该是小提琴的挑衅。有时候,世间上的人事物,都需要靠 其他人事物的完备,才能得以完善。这就好像孩子依赖着父母,情侣依赖着对方,鼓手依赖着鼓棒,提琴依赖着琴弓。他有些许不忿,一定要这样两两相依吗?只 是,当孩子找不着父母,当情侣背叛了对方,是一种怎样的状况呢?为什么无助,无依,迷茫,彷徨会在这时纠缠着那只单的形影?当鼓手遗失了鼓棒,当琴弓断 了,那节奏,那旋律,又该怎么寻回呢?这个世界是否存在着一种法则,直教万物不断地寻求自己的另一半?这另一半不一定是个人,也许是枝笔,也许是把吉他, 也许是条狗,也许,是一缕梦想。寻着了那一半,虽然不一定能成为别人眼中的圆,但缺了一半已久的自己眼中的圆,嘴角都是往上扬的。

声乐家女高音出场了。这是连志玲姐姐都没办法唱出的高音域,高亢而厚实,绝不轻飘虚浮。她在唱着什么语言啊?她自己听得懂吗?身为专业声乐家,他想,她应该 是认识那种语言和那首歌曲的。问题是,台下的听众听得懂吗?他自己就听不懂了。但是,为什么专业声乐家直到今天依然是以那几种他分不清到底是西班牙还是意 大利,德国还是法国的语言到世界各地演出?大部分的地球人懂吗?或许这时,有一件事情他应该明白了。所谓的音乐无疆界,就是说连歌词都无法理解时,听众已 不觉得歌者是在唱词,而是在唱声。这把声音就像钢琴声一样,从一件乐器中传出来,而这件乐器的名字,就是人。当人成为歌曲中的其中一件乐器时,这首歌就变 得不平凡了,因为它是由活物与死物所合奏出的音乐。只不过,流行歌手都是以平实的口吻唱歌,为什么声乐家偏偏不这样做,就是要练就一腔完美的嗓音,让些许 人听词,让多数人听声?

他,不了解。但,有一点是他理解的,就是这彰显了人是多么想把自己的情感宣泄出来,无论人在世界的哪个角落,都在努力地以自己的方式敞开胸怀,歌唱生命。

她坐了下来,将大提琴支在地上,靠拢左肩。左手,按着弦;右手,拉着弓。大提琴的琴音,是低沉的,是性感的,是雄厚的,是能安抚人心的。前阵子,他刚看过本 木雅弘主演的《礼仪师之奏鸣曲》,久石让所谱的大提琴独奏让他对大提琴无限神往。由于琴身与人的身体大小相若,又贴拢着身体,因此大提琴手在拉琴时总是毫 不做作地随着旋律与情绪摆动全身。拉音时,更要不断抖动左手按着的琴弦,让那余韵有如水面上的涟漪一般,让听者平静的心湖也能泛起一丝波动。

大提琴的哀鸣牵住了他的思绪。到底,音乐是为了什么而存在的呢?既然有了言语,人类就已足够表达思想和感情了吧。但事实又似乎不是这样的。言语真的已足够表 达所有的思想与感情了吗?未必。言语有着它的局限性。为了打破局限,人类从自然界的风吹草动、鸟鸣雀啼中汲取灵感,制造各种也能够发声的死物,以无言语的 方式向外倾诉内在的情感,以跌宕起伏的情绪给那死物注入了活泼的灵魂。从此,生命有了寄托,死物有了生命。那有生命的死物,竟然比从人类喉咙发出的只字片 语更能贴近地表达心中的感受。

说穿了,人就是不断地从既有的音符中重新拼凑生活的碎片,再于喧嚣的世界中寻找与自己心弦相符的振动频率。


大提琴手拉下最后一弓,然后向台下欠了欠身。帷幕关上了,音乐厅亮了起来,提醒着听众:该回来了。他走出大门,掏出随身听,戴上了耳机,再次离开这纷扰得不真实的空间。



(2010年10月)

Monday, February 21, 2011

五岁至八岁时的天堂

往草坡的路途

“妈咪,我去草坡了”既兴奋又细尖的声音,从我喉咙发出。当时,时钟的分针和秒针正指向12的位子(是如此的准时啊。)

“七点以前跟我厝(tuin tshu)”既尖又如雷公般的声音从厨房发出。

其实,只是隐隐约约听见“七点”二字,自己早就在路途一半。就算身边有人擦肩而过,往往是在七八小步后才发现刹那前好像有一物在自己身旁掠过。边跑边转头回望,虽然不知道是谁,反正就是住在附近的大婶。

Aunty”一词便脱口而出,脚步也放慢了。

对方应声也转头过来,往往回应会是“Ooi”。

比较认识的长辈也许会加多一句,“去草场玩啊?”

脚步渐快,脸颊开始转回原本的方位,敷衍地答道“嗯”。之后便向已充满嬉笑声的草坡奔去。
离草坡卅步之遥,已可以一清二楚地望到草场中的一切。目光往往都注视在离自己较近的滑板,加快速度的奔跑。廿九、廿八、廿七。。。。。。九、八,等等!面前有个大沟渠(有一尺的宽度啊)!敏捷的身体不但不及时煞车,反而加快速度,离沟渠半步的处,潜意识使双脚踏稳地后,隐隐约约可以见到疤痕的双脚顿时略弯后强健的肌肉再把双拉直,脚跟随着被抬起,这时仅据着寸土地脚尖再向地面使出最后一道劲。此霎那,身体是浮在空中同时向草场迈进。着在铺满深绿色的野草的陆地是时,膝盖处也略弯后才放直。整个过程只是区区是半秒钟。心里暗数着:五、四、三、二、一。

(2011220日下午10时于Bentley, Western Australia)

滑板
终于到达了通往滑板顶处的阶梯 --“天国的阶梯”。
只是这镀黄的“天国”楼梯是长满却是粗糙又易割手的棕色铁锈。有时,手掌不经意靠近鼻子时,将会闻到类似血的味道,但手掌却没流血。奇怪! 滑板像一个畸形的A字母。高约二米半,连顶端踏板一起计算,共有十一个阶级。与滑板相比,阶梯的较短及斜度较高。滑板正中间,有条垂直但并不粗大的筒状铁柱支撑着,两个虎口就可以将铁条食指并食指拇指并拇指轻易地围住了

“前面的快点啦”在那儿呆了半天还是寸步不移的我不耐烦地喊道。深知自己还是最后一位(其实,顶端平台的阶梯的空间只是可以容纳六、七人而已。同时,我也意识地滑板通常不会排队太久就可以轮到自己了。也许这项是我第一项游戏吧,所以显得有点期待、兴奋及希望马上可以轮到自己。所以不经觉地怨了一下。

尾音还没消,就杀出一句,“等下先啦”。随着声音往排队人群仰望,一个脚穿黄裤身穿“Hello Kitty 衣服的女孩正瞪着我。因该是她吧。说完扎着辫子的她便往原来的方向望。她的那一对辫子,随的她的转头,像拨浪鼓的坠子,分别向脸颊及后脑部位轻打。

“死八婆”我在唇间不发出声音的骂道。此时,脚步也往上三个梯级移步,眼睛扫描着远处几棵果株。

细说滑板的几种玩法
经常,一些大我几岁的哥哥是不走“正路”。整个滑板主要是由四支直立的圆铁柱所支撑的。四支铁柱的梢也是滑板顶端四方平台的支撑点。每两支直立圆铁柱的中心则由一根打横的铁条连接着。这样就好像打横的铁条们形成四方戒指,套在四支直立的圆铁柱中。这些打横铁条离地面越一米,正好可让大哥哥们从面爬上横铁条,再以横铁条为出发点向顶端平台迈进。顽皮的我也曾试几番。

又移上三步。

滑板,谁说一定要坐着滑下。只要鞋子够滑,可以从顶端站着往下滑。当然,过程要以双手平衡。最大的问题是在着陆时。这时因为着陆区域是由比滑板木板本身更滑瓦片铺成的。由于,从滑板往下滑着陆时,速度会剧增,没经验者往往屁股要“开花”咯。虽然很痛,不过还是硬着“股皮”不断尝试,滑了又跌,跌了又滑。本人也是这样锻炼,才把这招式掌握。“头向下脚朝上”的招式就不用多说了。

再移三个梯阶。

曾经玩滑梯的人应该懂得让先前的那一个完全滑下着陆及离开着陆区域后,自己才可以往下滑。如不这样做,从顶端的人将会把刚着陆但来不及起身离开的同伴踢个正着。后果可能会严重。当然,左右的扶手可用来紧急煞车。但手掌可能会被擦伤;不幸运的话,木屑可能会刺进手掌,那种隐约的刺痛可不是好受的。

两格,到顶了。滑板没有其他人的时候,站在顶端平台瞻望远景及脚下的活动其实是挺写意的一件事。

有时,滑下来后,如发觉没他人滑板,那么,滑板就变成了“楼梯”。双手用力握着滑板左右扶手,尽量把自己推到更高。配合此动作的双脚(穿着鞋的话)则须要骑脚车似的不停地向顶端爬(因为拖鞋及滑板摩擦力低)。脚一停下,代表着整个人将会从骑脚车式变成俯卧式,然后,肚皮朝地背后朝天地往下滑。另一种方式是从远处(穿着鞋)直奔到顶端平台上;最简单的还是赤着脚吧。

“喂,快点滑下去啦,在发什么梦”一个站在我后方的小弟不耐烦地说到。

“哦,okay。”

为什么一个滑板有这么多种玩法?小孩能做到,大人做得到吗?
(2011221日上午1.10于Bentley, Western Australia)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Ang Zen Yang 的小写自我

angzenyang的小写自我

“小写”指简单大略地写, 并不是细写。来自于马来西亚一个既面积不大又朴素新村(也不是真正的新村,只是沿新村兴建的一个花园)的我,自小并不是善于写作。本人的写作造诣,在闽南语里称“半桶屎”。本人也不乐在其中。加上向来长气的个性,所以自小考试中从不选描述文 (说明文是首选)。此次开笔,可说是新的尝试,有劳读者在词句之中摘出本人的要点。

对了,本人姓洪名政阳。祖籍福建省, 泉州市, 南安,下尾村(乘机来个较古式的介绍)。本身是个土生土长的马来西亚人。对于以上以祖籍作为开场,只是饮水思源的一个表现,简单地说,就是感激祖辈的存在,因为有他们才有我们;这样说,其实与感激地球的存在无别。如此而已。

也许自小被三国志之类电脑游戏的影响,致使本人又对古代世界的向往。深知古代世界是回不了的 事实,只好通过电脑游戏来望梅止渴了。对自然科学的兴趣使本人在事情思考方面偏于逻辑,在感性方面则较不敏感。可以推知,本人未来的文章将可能涉及有关课 题。当然,未来是不能被预知的,也许本人的写作风格将有所变?因为本人所认识的,有从事于教育系、语言系、工程系、物理系、生物系、医药系、经济系等等领 域的人,他们的观点自然在不刻意中影响着我

此次的“shared blog(集体部落阁)缘起于颂杰。其实,较早前,本人也有部落阁户口,户口是开了,但就如多年没储蓄的银行户口,里头是没钱的。本人也曾经想在俊豪的部落阁做个寄客(寄客是本人自己的词汇, 不时在某人部落阁内撰写文章但不必经营此“blog”的人。但由于药剂系课业的繁忙使本人的计划耽搁至今。“shared blog”的好处在于一个”blogger”部落客不需时常更新自己的blog(即经常发布新文章),因为其他成员可以在此人忙得不可开交时发布他们的文章。这可使shared blog 一直被更新,读者也可以在一个blog 内阅读不同课题文章及不同角度的看法。

记得,我曾经向几位朋友说过,“我是不会写blog的,为什么要把自己的私隐公告天下”。然而,随着年龄的增长,我发现部落阁未必是自己的日记,它也可以让我分享一些有趣、有建设性的看法及观点,有惠于大众。第二,是给自己一个新的尝试。第三,使自己与时并进些(现在流行部落阁嘛)。是为序。


2011219日下午9时于吉隆坡LCCT

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Ignorance

...I knocked on the door and as I stepped inside, the doctor greeted me...

"What's your problem, young man?"
"Having some backache" I answered, stretching my waist...

It was almost 4.30pm, as what I have heard so much about his talkative nature, he started talking from the problems of the youths, to my back, to his past, back to my back...and more on politics...

As he dwelt in his ramblings of politics...he popped a question...
"Do you think there is hope in Malaysia?"
"I don't know. Yes, I guess?" I shrugged.
"You know, nowadays, a lot of youths are ignorant." He sighed.

I felt uneasy as I felt I was one of those...

ignorance?

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...as I was chatting on MSN, I remembered typing

" ...I never liked politics"

ignorance?

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What did we learn about politics and government in school? I could hardly recall.

Possibly nothing useful?


In schools, we were only fed with knowledge of “civics” which is merely how the current organization is put together. The real subject, “government”? I doubt we had that. There must be something more to it.

I took American Politics in US in 2009. I remembered learning about politics philosophy. Thomas Hobbes, John Locke are some of the main philosophers that influenced the American politics we know of today.

Back to basics...Hobbes believed that people are driven by selfishness and greed. To avoid chaos, people should give up their freedom to a government that will ensure order. Such government should be strong and able to suppress rebellion.

Like Hobbes, Locke believed that human nature allowed men to be selfish. In a natural state all people were equal and independent, and everyone had a natural right to defend his “Life, Health, Liberty, or Possessions". He believed that the government had an obligation to protect these natural rights. But that was the only reason that the government existed, and if the people believed that the government was not fulfilling this task, they could overthrow him and find someone new.

What we saw happening in Egypt is exactly that. Government fails, people revolt.

Is this the only inevitable way? Opposition to such governments usually just brings on more violence. Is this the only way?

One can speak out in caution and need not actively support a government that does not serve ALL its people. Doing nothing illegal, it is yet possible, by simply withdrawing one's cooperation, to bring about an eventual reform. There are several governments in the world that are failing, and will ultimately fail, only because their people express their silent disagreement by simply not cooperating.

On the other hand, where a government is obviously working hard for ALL its people, rather than for some special interest group or insane dictator, one should support it to the limit.

But, above all and before all, you have to understand more about what a "government" really is, know what type of "government" you want and keep track of what your current government is doing.

ignorance?

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I finally got in terms with myself that there is no such thing as "ignorance is bliss" in this context. Instead, I find that a little knowledge can be a dangerous thing.



A government cannot bleed, it cannot even smile: it is just an idea men have. It is the individual person who is alive—you.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Getting to Know Yourself is Important

I had just came back from a lecture classes at Nanyang Technology University. It was a lecture regarding Power Switching in Electrical and is part of a Master Courses that my friend took. In a short one hour I felt that get to know myself in a Quantum Leap. Because I finally find out that what I don't like.


I like to try a lot of stuff to figure out how much I like them and how much I dislike them. Is the scenario above, I had proven that I really don't like Power Electrical stuff. But much more interested in other field.

This had help me to lessen the choice of subject to take in my future. If I had not follow my friend for a his lecture, I won't have know it now!

Try and you shall know!

The "eXp Files" Explained

One may wonder why we use eXp Files as our shared blog title. In fact, it is purposes of the blog that have given the blog name -- eXp Files.

1. eXperience SHARING serves as the main objective of this blog.
2. eXchange IDEAS among the blog members and readers.
3. eXpand great THOUGHTS to all viewers.
4. eXplain useful CONCEPTS in simpler ways.
5. eXpress OURSELVES to the world

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Hello World!

You might be wondering what blog is this for right now... but down the road after 10 years or so... when you look back at the archives, you will find that your ideas and experiences changes you...

This is the places for us to share our experiences among ourselves and to the world outside!